With a heavy heart I trudge home from my errand. With just a couple of weeks left in the
Philippines, I am beginning to distance myself a bit emotionally so that the
good byes will be less painful. But in
the process my attitude is turning sour.
I feel a bitterness edging in, robbing me of joy and of grace and of
love. So my heart is heavy, and I abhor
these negative feelings inside of me.
I plop down at my computer and I reach out for help. I pour a little of this heavy heart out in quick
emails to two praying friends. Promptly each
one in turn emails me back some grace.
One with a beautiful prayer that melts my hardening heart, reminding me of
God’s mercy and of His goodness even right here in the middle of the
challenges. The other friend lovingly
encourages, then challenges me: ”Disarm your ill feelings with gratitude.”
How quickly I forget!
Gratitude. Gratitude for every
gift that God gives to me today, confident, trusting that this gift is the
perfect one for me in this moment.
Gratitude that turns sourness to sweetness, bitterness to joy. Thanks, my dear friends, for being uplifting instruments
of grace and truth to me today.
A day later, lighter of heart, I leave the house to run
another errand. I’m on my way to the
hospital to pick up TB testing results, a requirement by the school for
involvement next year on our return. Outside
of our house the sun blazes hot at midday.
Thank You, God, for cheerful sunshine!
Riding up the road in a jeepney, another jeepney passes by. From deep inside I spot someone waving at
me! It’s my friend J, and she signals
that she’s sent me an email. Thank You,
God, for friends on the jeepney route, and for emails from them in my inbox. The wind blows cool through the jeep windows;
thank You for this reprieve from the grueling heat of the day. I hop off downtown and walk toward the
hospital. People are on the street all
around, visiting, repairing vehicles, texting, enjoying a cool drink. Thanks to
God for community.
I arrive at the hospital entrance where a smiling guard
checks my purse.
I’m grateful, God, that
we live in such a secure place.
|
inside the hospital |
Within
minutes I have the TB test results in hand.
Triple negatives.
Triple thanksgiving
for three healthy children.
As I exit the hospital I make a
decision. I’m going to walk home.
The sun is shining, God is good.
On my walk a sociable taxi driver asks, ‘why are you walking?’
I tell him it’s for exercise, though that’s
only part of the story;
it’s more because today I want to take time to notice
more of God’s goodness.
Thank You, God,
for healthy legs to take me home.
In the
field I pass a huge grazing cow.
She’s magnificent.
Thank You, God, for Your creative
genius.
Across the street I see a
squatter’s shack and I give thanks for our house.
Almost home, a group of Filipinos chatting
together in the shade yell out a cheerful greeting.
Thank You, God, that I live in such a
friendly place!
With a light heart I arrive home from my errand.
I traveled the same route.
At the same time of day.
But oh, what a different view,
and all
because of friends who pray,
and the joyful perspective of a thankful heart.
For you know the grace of our Lord Jesus Christ,
that though He was
rich,
yet for your sakes He became poor,
so that you through His poverty
might
become rich.
2 Corinthians 8:9